Lets chat a little — I know today you woke up in a funk and you’re frustrated with yourself because you so badly wish this wasn’t the “norm” for you. It’s okay. It’s okay that some mornings, days, weeks, or months may look a little (or a lot) gloomy. It’s okay. Lean into what you need to lean into because I know somewhere in the darkness is light waiting to help you grow a little, smile a little, love on you a little, and help you expand. Just because you have your days does not mean you are taking steps back.
Depression is such a fickle thing. Some days you are fine and you go about your day, and then there are those days — those days where you wake up in the morning and you just know that hell has been knocking at your door all night. It’s okay. It’s going to be okay.
Babe, I’m so proud of you today. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed this morning because I know it was something you did not want to do because you are just so mentally exhausted and feel spread thin. It’s okay, babe. I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for picking up that book you’ve been wanting to read for several years. I’m proud of you for eating and nourishing your vessel. Remember last year? Last year you would have skipped meals… for days. I’m proud of you for knowing what you needed to get you mentally and physically going. I’m proud of you.
You, my sweet love, you are powerful and beautiful and so incredibly strong. Those deep breaths you keeping taking — take them. I know you feel a little (a lot) anxious today but it will pass, and remember — you have a husband who loves you and yearns for you to lean on him, you have two little souls who love you unconditionally, you have parents who love you more than you could ever comprehend, and you have friends who SEE YOU. You are so loved and cherished, baby girl. Please don’t ever lose sight of that.
You are so incredibly talented; your words mean something to you and help so many others. Stop comparing your words and your thoughts to others — you are you and you are magic.
Today, today I want you to do something that lights you up and keeps you present — whether it’s taking a bath, reading more of that book, writing a letter or just words for fun, pulling a card from one of your tarot decks, something physical, going outside and breathing in this glorious weather and feeling the earth between your toes… I want you to do it. Make a little list of all the things you are grateful for today. Make a list of all the things that make you feel good. Make a list of the things you love about yourself. Repeat them out loud… several times.
And, stop it — don’t let that mom guilt take over. Your boys are happy and thriving. YOU did that. YOU make those boys smile, laugh, loved, and safe. YOU are their home. So stop it. They love you.
Babe, I know today is a tough day but remember this (please always remember this) — you are supposed to be in this world. You have so much to give (more than you are willing to give yourself credit for) to this world. There are so many people who are counting on you; your boys, your person, your family, your friends, and the ones who are always cheering you on.
YOU. ARE. LOVED.
YOU ARE WORTHY.